Rich Group of Words

A walking partner verbalized an excellent point and I want to pass it on to you..

While we were walking and talking..I expressed a discomfort in maintaining a certain friendship
..the guy had disposed of me and now he is calling..I feel by interacting with him I am telling him
that I do not have value and that it is not okay to throw me away..and I make lives better

Yet I am being told I am holding a grudge which is unhealthy for me to do..

My sidewalk sally said: only you knows how it feels because you are the one in it..

yeah, and I feel uncomfortable...I thought that was a really rich group of words..