unconditional

A friend called me tonight and I confessed all the ways I feel awkward. She did not try to change my feelings, give me advice or tell me I was wrong. We laughed and affirmed how life can be. And you know,it felt really good.

wynton marsalis

I want to pass this quote on to you:

If you are not making mistakes, then you are not learning, by Wynton Marsalis

what is your favorite quote? let's start a chain

switch

A pet siting period is coming to an end. I have never felt such a strong bond, our communication is completely in sinc. Wishing my canine
companion could transform into a male companion weaves my days.

spotlight

A male friend and I went to dinner with the specific mission to put each other first with listening without judgement. We both came away with full stomachs and a feeling that the spotlights were on us. Listening without judgement is always a friendship formula with wattage

boomerang

selecting and reflecting on the words I use to describe myself, I edit the negative self descriptions. Self reflections are a boomerang for how we are treated...it is our power to be treated with respect.

secrets

Being called a chatter-box has left a mark. Friends and co-workers are informing me that I withhold information within the confines of conversations. The former moniker has limited my volunteering of information. Really the bottom line is I am not confident in the deducing of what is pertinent to the discussion. Trying to be more in tune with my dialogue partner could be a a start.

Life is a daily process

pillow talk

Paying attention to how I talk to myself when my head hits the pillow, when words are negative I reverse them to positive. The required alertness is not always easy. Fear that negative self talk will block feeling truly comfortable in my own skin is my motivation.

yoko ono

When Yoko Ono was asked about her relationship with John Lennon, she said being fearless in love and recognizing an entitlement to be
loved fully and properly will enable everyone to have the similiar love I had.

The more fearless we become in all areas of our lives,the better our lives become

emotional vessel

I can be a vessel for other people's negative moods.When consumed with physical tension that is the root of borrowed angst, I tell myself that
the transmitter is acting human..just as we all are..and it calms me

cleavage

I wore a summer t-shirt that happen to feature my cleavage. Gulp. I have mixed emotions about my breasts. There is many a day when I want the breasts to be as out and proud as elton john and other days, I wonder if my lacy bra is mocking them. Life is be taken one cup at a
time.

our narritives

We all have narratives or emotional time lines. These self-narratives manifest themselves in how we represent ourselves,primarily, in how we speak and decide what we deserve. Observing and respecting other's narratives has speared me to reshape my narrative.
I am confident that what I can let go will loosen me up from my head to my feet.

good avoidance

I called a friend. He revealed that he had been avoiding me because he had missed my performance, his in attendance did not leave a mark. We must operate under false perceptions among our friends about the affects of our behavior all the time. Practicing a good type
of avoidance is to touch base with friends to avoid (false) misunderstandings.

animal love

Leaving an awful work situation, I decided to be a pet sitter. This decision proved to be a defining moment. Pet's resting their heads on my leg, their jumping up and down to greet me, the contentment that comes from not having an emotional want. I emerge more healed whenever my pet visits come to an end.

2nd chance

Blind-date rescheduled, no folk songs for me. Seeking a grand opportunity to re-evaluate cosmetic to emotional presentation.
Thinking about self presentation is self-education and we all need that whether he calls or not.

questioning

Turning to a friend in confusion, I was consoled with questions substituting for advice. Pausing and asking me "what do you want to do"?,
"what are you feeling or thinking"? without requiring answers is a significant gift of self awareness and act of friendship.

bloom

Big sweeping changes are not required to become better at ourselves. Blooming happens a petal at a time.

uneven

There is a boy I adore, the feelings appear to be uneven. It is a friendship that can give more pressure then pleasure. I am not ready to make a choice, feelings are expected to fade.

lucky

A disabled relative ends my phone calls (with him) declaring us lucky. My mystified reaction morphed into the affirmation that good fortune can be found in all life positions.

defining moments

Being at a crossroads, I am indexing my defining moments. Identifying the moments
creates an emotional timeline and enables fertility for desired future defining moments.

sexual helen keller

Witnessing a new friend grab other male patron's organs through their pants at a local haunt lead me to wonder if she was a sexual Helen Keller