Is it or Isn't it?

A woman and I were sharing our daily updates..,I informed her that I was going stir crazy.., I was desperate to do something ..,

She replied that she was staying home..., she texted that she was at a club

this is where I get conflicted.., is it insensitive of her not to include me.., or

It is not her  responsibility to entertain me

Jumping Out Of My Skin

I feel like I am going out of my skin..,, feeling like sugar will be the key to my serenity.., a form of aloe if  you will ....

I asked myself, if not now then when.., to act on creating long term gratification instead of short term gratification

That would be the real key to serenity

Singer

I attended a multi media art festival ..... People were milling around and talking....in front of the

mobile crowd, a woman sang..

I admired her determination and self belief to have not hesitated or distracted by the atmospere

"So Easily"

I was watching a man dance on a fake wood floor... He caught my eye while he was saddled on a bar stool... his unscathed skin glistened in the mood lighting 

He swiveled his joints like his feet were adhered to a lazy Susan ..., a girl motioned towards him and they complemented each other with relaxed physical chemistry ... 

I did not think I could be her  "so easily" because it would done "so easily" by me 

Change Day

I will think of how I let my thoughts get in my way.., my response will be that the next day will be a new day... New opportunity to change..  then when I don't I wonder if I will know how

" Misery"

Harsh self descriptions slip out of my mouth... to naturally ..... I go to work looking like Kathy Bates from "Misery"

   It can give me pause that I can be so insulting about the most person in my life

Friendship Gardening

                 Friendships require tending