spare tire

I am rattled. My houmer has given me the security of a spare tire
for a driver on a long country drive. I was always able to make
people laugh and it gave me the proper confidence to enter most social situations. Carol Burnett may have said they forget I am ugly when they laugh and I completely get that. The term "making
them laugh" indicates control. Watching someone laugh over words
that were born of my brain can be a tremendous high.

A friend, this weekend, informed me I was not funny and it left a mark. The experience has taught me to not take "the givens" for granted.