Staying Connected

I thought I was in the clear..I wrote her everyday of  a particularly painful phase of medical treatments.  Whenever I saw her, I would leave voice mails pin-pointing the different ways I liked being with her.

I would routinely re-establish how I was available to be of service.." I am available  for.." inserting most tasks that she may encounter during her daily life..I tried ..I really did..

Yet I am unable to free myself of the nagging question,particularly when I am walking, "Did I,really,
do everything within my power"?

Could this be my way of  staying connected with my decreased childhood friend?