The holidays bring out our addictions. I become addicted to wishful thinking..wishful he will contact me..he will surely contact me on thanksgiving..A permeating wish that he will come though..in a way that is never quite clear..I give him the choice.
Why do these wishes chaperon my outlook during the holidays? Perhaps it is because during the holidays certain people assess what is important and I want him to declare me important.
His nagging silence informed me that the love I gave him would have not been wasted on myself
expectations are never expressed, but always felt.
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