Siberian Coldness

I have an older relative that appears to be fading.   I feel a loyal connection to this relationship.  I visit him routinely .....

The group of people that surround him are unpleasant for unpleasant sake....upon entering the room, I feel a Siberian level coldness....a dismissiveness of my neutral coments

He has made his choice of company...making the choice knowing they hated me...

The question that bounces in my head....which is harder? dealing with hatred being directed at me? or

having potential regrets?

Of course, I am anticipating my reaction to his death instead of reacting naturally when it happens...