Last dollars

every minute..every day..every week..every month... I tell myself that I am going to make a change..

destroy my harness of oral fixation..seeing  it fall to the ground...then I will find myself at some counter at some hour of the day..digging though their inventory as I dig through my wallet to spend
my last dollars for the week..

I will ask  myself.." spending nearly your last dollar before payday..without hesitation..what would lead to a hesitation"?