Auto Pilot Stain

A man announced it was his birthday.  I proceeded to capture a card and circulate it among our co-workers.  While I was giving it to the third or fourth person, I flashed on the three times he verbally
viewed me as ugly.

I became quite emotional and wanted to stop the process.  I thought about how I am sick of engaging in positive behavior for people that engage in negative behavior towards me..I will need to learn how
to strip away the auto pilot stain from my reactions.