Calculating my Self Compass

A relative from my youth would frequently tell me that I expected to much from people. This would inbalance my requests of behavior from the people in my adult life. I would waver between asking to little and being agressive in what I required of my friends. I have,yet, to find a happy medium..I am confident that I am on the road to finding peace.

Shooting the Messenger

A male aquaintance and I would fall into life discussions. We fell out of talking when our schedules changed. He contacted me and revealed that he missed me. I could not match his emotion. Declaring him brave while awakening to the fact that it is more about the teller of the message then the message

Perhaps Not

A man called me to arrange a blind date. We exchanged "get to know you" stories. I introduced each story with "are you ready"..perhaps he was not I never heard from him again

Good Words Coming at the Right Times

Getting a text from an outgoing friend surprised me. She shared that my friendly voice messages were very meaningful and helpful to her. Ironicly,I almost did not contact her because she is a very social person with a vast support system. Her teaching is that good words are almost always needed and come at the right time

All Else..Blather

People will contact me and give me "friendly suggestions"on how to be different or question my inner voiced messages. I must realize that the only voice I must listen to is my own inner one..other voiced messages that do not feel right are to be considered blather

Becoming Lighter

I was raised by a relative that did not answer me. Being raised this way has resulted in my reacting when I observe people not answering other people. My workplace is a room with cubicles and people frequently verbally reach out to their co-workers over the temporary walls. When people did not answer..I would walk over to the desk of the non-answering co-worker and ask him to respond. Last night,I began to think this is becoming a lot of work ... reminded myself that I have the choice to become lighter and let this behavior go.. Finding the most important answer

Blind Reactions

I, reported a paycheck not being in the mail, to a friend. When I finished the report with,"I guess it was forgotten to be mailed", she asked why I had to assign motive.

I was completely unaware that I was doing that. It is a gift when my eyes are opened
to my blind reactions.