Sob- Functioning

Last night, I sat at my Applelbee's table using their wi-fi ..and I became the embodiment of tears ..

And it was not  just because I was at Applebees..I could be adjusting to the loss of a child-hood friend
I do not ever think I will adjust to this..I have not sob-walked or sob-functioned like this since my mother died.

I complain of being out of control..thinking I should be reigning in my emotions in public

I feel lucky to be in touch with people that tell me it would be odd if I was not crying