Almost twenty Years Ago?

I was talking to a woman.  The onset of our conversation started with a standard greeting about her
day.

The woman launched into stories about her friends..I asked her how long ago the stories took  place?
The incidents were from over fifteen years prior to my asking about her day..

I wanted to say, okay, so that happened almost twenty years ago..what happened today? This week?

Covert

I am overweight.  I have been loosing weight in a slow and steady pace.  People would inform me that I needed to loose weight when I was at a peak weight. 

"My weight is not a topic for discussion" I would react to the evaluator


Ironically, a patch of comments have sprung up from grade school friends..the anger has been exchanged for a feeling of  a waring down

The substitute eternal response  has enabled me to engineer a more covert and quick moving on from the person..

Empathy?

One of my mother's best friends would describe,to me, how she missed my deceased mother.  She created word pictures of laughing with her friend or how my mother could crack problems through
research.

I thanked my mother's friend and thought I understood.. I did not..Loosing a childhood friend has
taught me what I did not know..anything I may have thought I knew about empathy has  gone
up in ashes this week

Public Emotion

Evidence of my Irish DNA is a fear of showing raw emotion in public.  This particular fear was showcased this week.  I was asked to speak at a childhood's friend funeral and expressed this fear
to a man.

The man assured me it was  natural to cry at funerals ..he brilliantly observed: 

"That is why there is Kleenex available at funerals"

Baby Names

I tell,myself and others, that I never expected to get married or have children ..that was not a key desire for me..my life unfolded a different way..I talk to people about my firm wish to be a godmother


Yet I have vivid memories, of being in my late twenties or early thirties,  carving out baby names.  I would visualize myself using  the selected names while interacting with my child.

Thinking a life will be a certain way ..does not  mean it will be..

Snoring

It is hard to feel attractive when the loudness of my snoring wakes me up

Daunting Request

I was describing the behavior of a woman to my daily call.  My daily call will become upset when she hears a pattern of negative behavior directed towards me by the same person.  She will feel:
 if I continue to report it to her and she continues to listen then our focus is being mis-spent


My daily call will request that I stop talking about people that have exhibited certain patterns

It will seem like a daunting request