NUT!

I was raised by a man that was loving to me in private and mocked me in public.

When a male friend was telling me what was good about me in private and calling me a "nut"
in public ...I immediately sensed  a familial pattern..

I asked him  to stop....then released my dislike of it...for he was not like the man from my past

because he became loving of me in both private and public..