Damaged

I feel the most damaged during three days out of the year..December 23rd-25th..Some years I can escape classic ways of self sabotage through bad public behavior by the skin of my teeth..When I do
I think..I am better ..

Other years,  I do not make it..I spend minutes thinking that I am a tragedy..I have beauty,light and talent..yet I seem determined to show the worst parts of myself instead of the best parts.. The hardest part of it is I am the only one to blame and it always seems easily avoided ..

December 26th- I start to add the list another act that I must become okay with..