Unsettled

Loosing the major people in my life leaves me feeling unsettled.  I am aiming to make peace with the past..perhaps I should have called, texted and tried to hang out with them more..while coping with a future without them..

Wondering how to install the memories of the laughter in my everyday life without tearing up every time I see their email address or phone number in my phone..yet I can not imagine a day
when I would erase any of their contact information

I will be waiting this out and time will show me how to proceed