His Emotional Timeline

I was prodding a person to plant seeds for a change. He was resistant. I realized he is performing on his emotional timeline not mine.

Free Dance

Watching kids dance to disco, every color of the rainbow came across my face. Glistening with happiness for the boys and girls while having an envy for how free their physical movements were Watching them inspired me..to be free

Don't Imply them

A friend emailed me. She wrote that she thought I was amazing and she wanted me to know that. I exhale with a confident peace whenever I interact with her. Express your feelings for your friends..do not imply them

Cheeseburgers

I was blinded with cravings for fast food produced cheeseburgers. Eating my non-processed Starbucks' diet did not stave off the craving. I went to a fast food drive-through at night. I,finally, had to ask my driver to stop driving me.

Getting Through

Judging and being petty of other's behavior can be listed as a special skill on my resume. A lot of my complaints are about people not responding to my "reach outs" in a timely manner. I must take in that people are trying to get through..

Singular Lines

Books are one of my more intimate companions because of certain singular lines in the contents of my selected books. There will always be a line that perfectly illustrates how I am feeling without knowing how to express it. I read the line,last night, in Little Bee: "don't let life happen to you"

Ease of the Mouth

Hearing co-workers quoting their co-workers reminds me to be careful in how I conduct my verbal self. My ear was struck by the ease of the person's mouth. Quiet times or group discussions are a fertile work time for sharing tidbits. Practicing thinking before I speak enables prevention. "MIRROR MIRROR"

What would Jesus order?

Wanting to colour my participation in a speed-dating event with armed planned questions. My goal was to create neutral questions that would elicit temperment..show me how he would be like while in line waiting for concessions at the movies.. The key questions in my holster were "what side dish would jesus order"? OR "what would jesus order off the menu"?

Treating Myself as I Treat Others

I was calling friends to fast-track a friend's resume. Reacting to a string of compliments regarding my resume..BREAKTHOUGH MOMENT...Why am I not sending my resume to my friends to be viewed for a placement with a company. Treating myself as I treat others could blow my life wide open

"Sad Sack"

My almost daily trek to Starbucks invited the report that I had hurt a barrista's feelings. My crime was asigning him the classification of "sad sack". When you meet him..you will see that there is no wiggle room to this knickname.. his posture and facial expressions define "sad sack" Feeling an imediate need to undo my emotional damage..I staked out the dumpster and expressed contrition..he shrugged his shoulders ..as only a "sad sack" would

Storage Space

I have a storage space in the back of my mind. things to do..pick up the post- it off the floor..securing spare apartment keys..adding pictures to computer profiles Stepping out of my quiet exterior and asking for help has been a quick route to cleaning out the storage space. I have asked fast food managers how to "cut and paste". A cabdriver taught me how to add a picture to a professional profile. Friends have agreed to keep spare apartment keys. Learning to ask for help has changed my life

Letting Go

I tend to hold on to people because they were instrumental earth teachers. The person I am holding onto could be an instrumental earth teacher of the lesson of letting go. I am a willing pupil.

Word Framing

Friends will give me advice or evaluate my behavior. I used to become hurt or annoyed when they did not purely listen and affirm my situation. I must examine my role in the conversation. How am I framing my words in conversations with my friends. I believed that I was "only" reporting or sharing my life ..one phonecall at a time.. Really I could be complaining and revisiting the same topics..my friends are only human

Laughing

Certain People are in my life...they have cause for eviction..they will call and they will make me laugh so hard. Choosing to believe that the universe will invite into my life a person that gives me both respect and laughter is a lovely feeling.

Swing Shift

Targetting the El Pollo Loco near my work for chicken and rice. My frequent visits lead me to consume a different treat, Fernando. My social fears greased the start of the relationship with reluctance. A desire to learn spanish was the curve to dance to his side of the counter. Becoming more interested in Fernando, I began meeting his friends. Maria entered my eye-line and there was an instant attraction. Talk about a SWING SHIFT

Funny Stories

I coughed, a man approached, is lung cancer a turn on?

I meant to tell a listener he was "one in a million", "you are a dime a dozen"
came out of my mouth.

A friend informed me he blew his oral exam away..succeeding at oral is always a good thing.

I forgot to recharge my mobile phone and could not understand why it would not display
power

A woman reported her waxer asking to wax other body parts..suggestive selling can get
hairy

Being Released

Being fired is being released for an opportunity to better show-off our superior gifts. The concentration being used for the former place of employment can now be focused on the creating of life's new choices.

The gas in my engine is the curiosity of what opportunities the universe will create

Favorite Things

I observed a conversational leader and her organicly recruited tribe. Her effectiveness was rooted in asking tribal members what their favorite things were..favorite ice cream..
favorite flower..favorite movie... with each favorite revealed, a story from their past was
also revealed...

This could be the real mcgoo on how to draw in a new person into our lives.

Build up of Doubt

Positive words scrub away the film build up of doubt in relationships. A supervisor reinforced my "worker bee" style of addressing my daily demands. Complements are gifts
we can all give each other.

Mirror,Mirror?

I converse with a person daily. We share the same undesirable qualities. Hearing his over thinking about specific life situations motivates me to reduce my over thinking of my
life happenings.

I wonder if he was placed in my life as an earth teacher to instill certain lessons regarding uses of concentration.

Sugar

Sugar re-entered my life as easily as seeking caffeine on my morning commute to work. Soda became a frequent commute companion. Sugar became a part of my evenings in a similarly simple way. My teeth chattered at the thought of consuming my nightly treat of fruit during winter nights. The Starbucks bakery case that had stop striking a visual note,now,
was striking most of vision.

Having been on a new culinary hiking trail for most of the last year motivates me to arrive at the other side of the mountain (again). It is not about how I look, it is about feeling in balance.

I do not want to be at the mercy of a heath bar.

Blind-Dating Starbucks

I have been cheating. Even though I have been in a committed relationship with "my Starbucks", I have begun to blind-date other Starbucks. Feeling taken for granted with
stale coffee cake and nails on the chalkboard customer service.

My eyes began to wander..becoming dazzled by the shininess of a new relationship..unlocked chairs on patio after closing..being given a free meal at closing..emotional lightness

Like most relationships..familiarity will keep me attracted.

Her Final Year

I used to talk to a female acquaintance weekly. She talked negatively about the people in her life. She died a year later. I often wonder if she knew she was entering the final year of her life...would she have had a more positive focus

Feeling Flow

My morning was flooded with a flow of feelings about my parents. I wanted to have conversations with them regarding specific life experiences. Standard operating procedure would have been to swat the melancholy away by insisting on being on the
horn..this time I sat with the feeling flow...

Safe Place

I have figured out why I am drawn to "my Starbucks"..it does not have a bad history.
Many of my key destinations are tainted with stomach tightening memories.
It also symbolizes hopeful anticipation...most of the tasks I perform there, is to advance my life goals.. Starbucks is my safe place

Joan Didion's Quote

I read the following passage in a Joan Didion book:

"I am left deciding how you are going to react to what they offer because you can't
make them change."

Deciding to accept what people can contribute to the relationship is a factor in evaluating there remaining in my life.

Forcing It

I used to force social situations. I released my desire to meet with certain friends. The universe has begun to create social opportunities for certain friends and I to reunite.

Homeless?

I will offer to buy meals for people..that I suppose are homeless...only to
discover they live in my apartment complex..

Sharon Stone's quote

Sharon Stone is quoted as saying: "Once your life burns down, it takes time to become a phoenix."

I am,now, giving myself time to be a phoenix..instead of condemning myself for not
achieving my goals in a quicker fashion

Broccoli

Broccoli should be considered a musical fruit. Why should beans have the all the power.

Full-Time Emotion

The emotion of happiness has returned to many word exchanges among a specific group of people. They inform me that I do not seem happy. I can not absorb the concept of full-time happiness. Moments of happiness are my points of self-celebration.

perhaps the moments will string together to create a full-time emotional placement.

"Sue Day"

A staff member was honored today. They presented her with her own day..we all informed her
how she made our lives better....gave her a large gift card..and of course coffee cake

I celebrated the day's organizer because she selected to focus on what was right about a
person..NOT WHAT WAS NOT..

A "Who Cares" Person

I over think a lot. It is crucial for me to have a "who cares" person in my life. A hysterical girlfriend has been granted this key role. Most mornings, we exchange daily reports and when I reveal any negative reactions to my comedy or writing.

SHE SAYS: WHO CARES? It is about whether you like it.