Kate Winslet

When people ask me about my college years, I am usually stymied.   Describing my vision, as student, for following college is frequently a thorny proposal  

Kate Winslet has said it for me,  I was fat....I did not see myself as having a place in the world....



vanity fair interview

In My Face

I was, always, dismissive  of guys that wore  their jeans low....with most of their boxers in full view...or as I thought of it...in my face..

Then I met a guy... purely by accident...that wore his jeans with his red plaid boxers in my face...

We took the same college classes.  He was deep and very articulate.   His humor was, also, advanced.

In general, the man exhibited a dear disposition.   My meeting him has been a reinforcement of not judging a person by their cover

Sixth Grade

During my sixth grade year, a therapist informed my mother that I suppress

thoughts and it could cause me harm.

My Father's sister reacted: "What could u be possibly suppressing"?

Vertical Stripes

Working in retail can put you face to face with questionable decisions...a particularly curious one is

large people buying clothes featuring vertical stripes...

In the Last Six Months

When I have been, the last six months, truly myself...did not overthink.. I got a job, passed advancement tests ... was asked out...and succeeded during an open mic night

I must remember this and not overthink it..

Ever

I am experiencing male attention for the first time....EVER...I would take almost every offer....thinking it may be the first and last time the proposal was given...

A morning this week, I decided I would start to say no.. because  feeling iffy was a potential result

of saying  yes...

weirdly, that night I got an offer, I said no because I do not need more self doubt...

Oral Optics

I wore my glasses while engaging in oral....which upon reflection could have appeared to be insulting