Movie Quotes

"I am hard to get. All you have to do is ask"

Lauren Bacall in "To Have and  Have Not"


"I believe, I believe. It's silly,but I believe"

Natalie Wood in "Miracle on 34th Street"

Shower Mirror

The shower I used today has a mirror..What about you? a shower stall is one of my last places I would place a mirror..

"To Go" Cups

A timeline of unexpected tragic events has become etched in my memory as I became deeper into adulthood.

My reactions were as new as my  life altering event...I was always surprised by my reaction ..and would look back in wonderment as to why I did that..thinking it was silly..or wasteful..

One particular reaction to a lifestyle shake-up was to keep "to-go" cups in the freezer..so every time I got a soda on ice from a convenience store or fast food franchise..I put the cup with the residual ice
in the freezer..

you know..when I look back on these behaviors I come to the same conclusion..I did not feel like I
had a choice at the time

"That Would be Personal"

I met a gay couple.  They immediately regaled me with stories of their sex lives ..how many times they
get it on..their use of numbing gel..

I stopped them by asking why they do not describe what they like about each other..does one partner
cook? Who cleans?

One of the members of the gay romance reacted strongly: "Well because that would be personal"..

Those First Nights

Spending my remaining nights in my ghetto pad apartment has sent me back to my first nights in the
first apartment..since college..

I would stay out with a friend,Troy, until it was almost time for me to escape into sleep.  He got me through that time..a time when surviving a minute felt like a personal victory..

My choice is to be confident that I will also have a superior guide in my new homeland..

Continue to Chase it

I will meet a person..we will connect and I will feel the best form of rich acceptance..when I can completely exhale, be calm and feel completely at peace..

Then the connection will dissolve..with no explanation..something as simple as schedule shift could be the cause..

I will only be able to think about how it was and not how it is..so I continue to chase it ..determined that if I do not give up I will once again experience feeling completely accepted by another person

Others Did Not

My "daily call" says I have a special talent for finding the best in people ..even (as she says) in the more miserable people of both my world and the world..

Even I can not avoid noticing how certain people took the time to see me.. before I moved to the east coast  from the west coast...,,and other's did not..