Stalling

This must have happened to u..,?!  A person making small talk ( with you) while you are in a public
bathroom stall... It usually starts near the sink... After entering the bathroom.., then I become horrified when the words do not magically stop when we grasp for the stall door...

I can not stall any later... I must start telling these party poopers  that I can not be a party to their flush of words

Nevering

I am guilty of nevering myself ....  "I will never move from Phoenix"

"I will never find a stable job that embodies my talents"..,, "I may never be a person that gets up, in time, to apply make up and blow out my hair prior to work"  "I may never stop craving Chinese food"

"I may never write a book"

It is an uneducated form of self communication ..  The more I define myself by "nevers" then the less
I will do

Trying new things creates opportunities for less "nevering"

Still Explaining

Years ago, I had sex with a male friend.,,

I am, still, explaining ( to him) that I am not gay

Cheap Wine

A man and I were hosting a dinner party... Most of the prep work was completed...

Me: shouldn't we open the wine ... To let it breathe...

Man: not with cheap wine

Textual relationship

I have a textual "relationship" with a father.... At the end  of hours of texting... He would sign off by
keying " Good Night, dear"

It always made me feel warm and safe... I figured it was further evidence of neediness...then it hit me

My father would come into room during ,most of my youth, with those duplicate words

John Denver

I engaged in a work excerise ....

Male Worker: I am always glad to be available to help members of my team..,

Me: You are like a John Denver song ..,

Male Worker: U know I am 20... So I will not have heard of the same people U have


There was one thing that tied our two generations together... Listening
to Queen's  "The Champions" prior to sports games

Vacancy of Malice

I had dinner with a man and a woman... The woman has less marbles then most of us ... Her life is one long unfortunate senior moment.... I was stacking nervously chattered word upon word...

The man scolded, "you are talking to fast... You are fustrating her"

In that moment, I decided I will not continue to feel
bad for behavior that will not remembered by the recipient and has
a vacancy of malice