Treasure

Whenever I think of contacting the Stallion, a man from my past, I tell myself, a treasure does not
do the hunting

Value of It

The value of keeping going is that it gives u a chance to become who you
want to be... and create a life you want to have

Each Morning

I am determined,to wake up each day, closer to achieving self acceptance...
simulating  desired qualities and habits into my daily behavior ... and more at peace
with my past

Porn Purge

Insomnia can lead to all sorts of watching choices. One such restless night prompted me to stumble upon a show about hoarders...

Viewing the purge portion of the show is my
version of porn.... Rare things give me more joy
then donating items from my apartment

Watching their release of  things gives me a vicarious
thrill

Safe Place and Savior

I adopted a family.   I  would give them "welfare boxes" ...boxes ranging from kitchen things...food...clothes.. or hygene products .

It started to feel uncomfortable.. they became more demanding then gracious...I flopped, in a grey zone, with thoughts of their hungry kids


The flopping stopped when I realized that I was striving to become a combined safe place and savior

I need only to be my own safe place and savior...

21

A girl revealed to me that she wanted to be 21 forever... The idea of being frozen in time
and not having the ability to learn what u learn in each additional decade ... Sounds really depressing to me..

Con Game

A woman went into detail about how confident she was... She,then, proceeded to ask me what I thought of her...