A Can of Soup

I spent Christmas evening purusing  the isles of Walgreens ... I decided to splurge with a can of soup. While it was displayed on the check out counter ... The moment of truth came ... My debit card was declined..., a woman in layered blue cotton bought it for me ... Because it was soup ... I felt particularly defensive ...

I pleaded: I am, really, quite fortunate ... I am not a good budgeter

Better You then Them

I use the remaining days of a year to reflect on my desired changes for the following year. I want 2015 to be the year of the dollar. To only buy what I really need ... The cause has been spearheaded with the use of a journal. I wrote how I want to save ..  Where to place residual funds from buying less
I receive joy from weeding a source of nutrition from my cart in the check out stand
Better the individual have the money the company

Native

A woman described growing up in Phoenix, Arizona ...she lived near the airport.   I responded by informing her there was one terminal when I was a child...

She said you must be older then you look....I said: " Well maybe there was two terminals"...

A Public Unzipping

I took a job that may not be an automatic fit for an automatic fit of a new pad.   After slowly decreasing my size though the decreasing the size of food intake....I have increased in size..

I have stopped obsessing with social interaction and started obsessing about pasta or rice

my general discomfort regarding my newish job  has lead me to stand in front of the TV and watch repeats of "Everybody Loves Raymond" while clutching a Tupperware container of heated left-over
pasta ...veggies... and chicken at 1am

however much I eat it is never enough...I must stop before all my zippers start to unroll at their own motor in public

Ping of Pleasure

When I moved into new digs...I brought twenty years of  cards from my parents...stuffed into a manila envelope....

I tucked a selection of cards into various cabinets...behind plates or treasured Q-tips... seeing them and the dash of color from the card's pattern  gives a ping of pleasure ...

Apartment

I signed a lease on a new apartment.   It is the first apartment that I selected based on choice then

circumstances....

It has brought a wave of emotion that this will permeate other areas of my life

Unstitching

When unstitching a previous relationship, I would inform certain woman friends that I would always

have a bond with him.

I painted myself as needing to be available when he needed help because he brought certain behaviors into my life...


Then one day, I was walking and it came to me....one decision ..one thought...one desire...does not
determine being locked in...a mind can be changed...