Accumilating Weight Loss

I have been gradually loosing weight over a five year period. The less my food choices are rooted in feelings of shame and deprivation the more successful I have been in accumilating weight loss.

Proper Digestion

Questions can be more effective then advice. When I mentioned talking to a friend to another friend...He asked me, "Is he good for you"? The question has come back to me during the days since the dinner..a broad brush about poor friend selection would have felt a tad bit smothering and would not have been digested in the same way

A New Line

A man rejected me. He did not care for my looks. I got word that he feels "like hell about it" A part of me has wanted to console him..wanting to give him the emotional sav of laughing through his grief over loosing me..his idea or not..he is sad I have a new line for my list of self improvements

"So What"?

I tend to bogged down in my thoughts and other's..I am learning to ask myself "so what" when other people's thoughts take over mine

Being in the Golden Light Tomorrow

There are days when I want to lay down. I will get bad news. Challenges being thrown in my path..not always knowing where to to walk... Particular people will create obstacles for no clear reason... Even though, my trail may have weeds..broken glass..and slush..I have to keep going. I have to keep trying now routes and seeking new life maps. Because being in the slush today does not mean I will not be in the golden light tomorrow

Stomach

I was standing in front a male friend's car door. When leaving me to walk to the driver's side, he gently touched my stomach. My whole life I was told that my stomach was what was wrong with me. His slight caress was one of the more healing experiences of my life.

His Mistress

I found out that a high school friend died. He engaged in a fuller love story with alcohol in his forties. His mistress took him before his fiftieth birthday. I feel sad that that was who he turned to during his free moments..perhaps more so during the quietest moments before bed.. He gave me such joy..