Aramis Commercial

I work in the men's division of a national department store chain.  A man lingered at my register after the completion of a purchase..

Man: "Would you like to get to know me"?


good line..I did wonder if I had stepped into an aramis commercial

A Room with a View

A high school friend invited me to rent a room,in her house, on the opposite coast.  The invitation comprised of most of my desired lifestyle components..It was an area with better public transportation..I would no longer be alone on the holidays..I had been wanting to return to the east coast for years..living with her would

protect me from hurting myself

I thought the universe had arranged this for me..I was unwavering in my focus to do what I could to release my life in Phoenix,Arizona..and move to the easy coast

What I did not know is, it never had a chance

And How

I,recently, attended a lunch with former class-mates..It was so interesting hearing people's feelings and their decision-making process during the daily social situations..that are invoked during young dating..

How they proceeded when they were getting to know themselves and their bodies..and how their perch and perspective colored their positions

Mental Hospital

I contacted a friend..an experienced social worker..for a list of local homeless shelters..for a source of volunteering..

The woman responded:  " I do not know how to get you into a homeless shelter..I can get you into a mental hospital"..

Getting in ..spending time in a mental hospital?..sounds relaxing..I could catch up on my sleep

Easier Not Harder

I have certain attachment..loyalty..appreciation..for certain people that enforce my daily progress

the cab-driver that gets me to my bus-stop to enable my arrival to work..the stranger
 that smiles and chats me out of moments of anxiety..the barristas that puts aside the foods that prevents conflicts with my G.I. Track...

They are making my life easier not harder

Duped

Rear view mirrors are frequently used as the ideal earth teachers...pleading to a friend..that I could not think of any warning signs ..in retrospect..seeking an education by revealing some the lines
exchanged with my former friend...

My current friend offered that I was duped and not to second guess my self..

it is bound to happen

What am I attracting?

There are days when I wonder if I am attracting negativity or only reacting to the negativity