Shades of Control

Many rooms in my emotional house are painted with shades of feeling out of control. I have discovered that if I paint a room in the house with a feeling of being in control.. even if it is the smallest room in the house.. reinforcing a good habit..

I feel much more empowered to tackle the other rooms..taking a room at a time

My life can be a gradual process

Free Pizza

While I was sitting in an Italian bistro, a homeless man came in to ask for free pizza.
I offered to pay for his dinner of cheese pizza.. no home no toppings

it is just part of the bylaws

Earth Teachers

I view life as a train station..think of the big lobby of grand central station.. the train passengers are my earth teachers and I do not know how long I get to be with them before their train departs .. I call them earth teachers because they travel into my life to teach me what I need to learn.. it may take an hour, a month or a lifetime

When people depart my life I focus on what I may have learned then focusing on the sadness

purposeful?

I was soaking up wei fei at a gourment market. A woman started a conversation with me regarding life and death. She completed her lunch and conversation by saying "you know more then you think you do"

Does the universe arrange for us to get messages and people are the vessels to relay the message. Are these messages produced by the same currents that arrange for the phone to ring by a friend that you were just planning to call?

You tell me? Discuss

emotional life track

I can get distracted by certain evaluations of me. The distraction veers me off my emotional track and diverts my emotional vision. Reporting to a mentor of a negative review of my comedic delivery, he said why do you assume someone knows more then you do?

I am back in my life lane, looking ahead and ready

sad times

There are times of the day or night when my battle to resist an ice cream chocolate chip cookie sandwich becomes more acute. Do you struggle with this? a time of the day when resisting a drink,certain foods or certain friends is an uphill climb?

Well, my sad time is between 9pm and 11pm and I discovered that my gym closes at 11pm.
I am grateful to life for providing me with a solution of empowerment.

LIFE IS A DAILY PROCESS

overcoming

I view life as a series of becomings and overcomings. Well right now I am overcoming the grief of a social change..not having the same closeness of certain friends that I once had. I am focused on not giving myself permission to grieve by sleeping more,exercising less,treading water in pools of Pepsi and or reinforcing bad relationships for a short diversion.

I am giving myself permission to feel every color of my adjusting process. I will learn overcome without it being at my expense.