reversing the fortune

Reporting to a dear friend: he says I am a safe place, I fill him with complements, I make him feel good about himself .The words twirled on my tongue while my brain twirled with a sense of being okay because I was viewed not as a source of hurt,pain or conflict. Yeah, but he is mean to you responded my life advisor. Relationships are not always about how well you treat your friends, it also about how well you are treated.

emotional candid

I rolled out of bed, threw on black threads and my pink Lauren hat. A friend had a 5:30 am t.v segment. I went to watch and tell him what he did right. Pictures were
taken of the two of us discussing presentation. Pictures were attached to an email
coloring me as a passionately engaged life coach. Challenging myself to replace my
negative view with his view, all my strengths rotated in my head like a Rolodex.

Howard Rourk

What do you do when you find a life situation hard to navigate? I turn to my favorite
literary character, Howard Rourk from fountainhead, and instantly know what to do.
You know what? He is never wrong.

taking compliments

Taking in complements is not a sign of entitlement. It is a sign of a realistic view of ourselves. always a good place to be

Iphone

A relative was pestering me to get the latest IPhone. Responding that buying the phone was self-indulgent, he said exactly.

Words of my Father

My Father would always tell me that people need to maintain certain beliefs. I do. I need to believe that I will be better at living each day. I need to believe that I will
put myself down less each day. I need to believe that I will take breaths each day before I make decisions. I need to believe that I am carving a desired future life during my everyday life.

I also need to believe that when I hand the cashier my debit card, I will stop reporting that I do not have cash for amounts less then 10 dollars.

throw away coments

I would be surprised by the number times that I put myself down in an off-handed way. so dumb, pathetic, ditsy, ridiculous, I tell myself
that it is okay because they are just throw away comments. Words that come from my mouth represent me and chip away at my self profile
and that is never okay. Throw away comments need to be thrown away, one self abusive line at a time.

We can do this.

Life is a daily process.