Sunday, March 13, 2011

a girlschool crush

Certain high school crushes do not expire upon entry into adulthood. This type of
lifestyle crush is probably a vocation of one your girlfriends. She maintains his
likes and dislikes like she maintains her medical records. Her ultimate complement
would be to hear from the crush how engaged she was instead he told her he would prefer she be a leader, not a follower.

daily performance

Putting yourself first in life is learning to put yourself first daily. It is learning how to get off the phone first, answer questions directly when asked what you want,and all the seemingly small questions that can create a emotional domino affect that may lead to you sabotaging your day's plan and that is not putting yourself first.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

airport

Airport was once a symbol of mobility and now it is now a symbol of empitness. While I stand in the security line, I perform an emotional scavenge hunt for what could be triggering this permeating feeling. Are the older people respresenting my fear of the future? My eyes finally rested on a passenger that was a point of arrival to clarity, a person in a wheelchair. Remembering that I am lucky for who I am and what I have,gave me an emotionally safe landing.

Monday, March 7, 2011

comedy fiesta

I am entertaining America one Mexican restaurant at a time. Following a 3 dollar margarita has always been my dream. Laughter is the prize in the pinata and my jokes
are the big stick. The happy surprise is one of the best places for an open mic night is a Mexican food restaurant because of it's informal atmosphere. Being among amigos
makes me feel okay to be awkward on stage.. after all life is awkward

Saturday, March 5, 2011

spelling


Correct spelling is a serious turn on for me, so is my dinner date asking the waiter
to fill my water glass but that is for another posting. A particular male friend is often recruited to recite the proper spelling of words day or night, hearing the letters that form the requested words is more then a sweet nothing, it is a purely
sweet something.

Do you know someone I can call for grammar?

like mother like daughter

Waking up, terrified because I did not know where I was, has granted me a heart wrenching
unity with my mother. A renewed clarity of my mother's experience as a person living with dementia struck me when I awoke in the darkness prior to sunset frozen in fear
because I had absolutely no idea where I was and I was in my own bed in my own apartment.
My body's system was void of alcohol and drugs while my memory was void. Even though I was lucky to regain my senses within a fifteen second period, it will haunt me for the rest of my life.

Also are the two occurrences of memory frozen wake-ups foreshadowing of what is to come
or life experience to create a sense of empathy that I wish I had when my mum was still
alive?

Friday, March 4, 2011

busted

A Crisis of confidence sent me on a beeline to the Walgreen's fridge to covet a chocolate chip cookie ice cream sandwich. Unwrapping the dairy treat, my pupils selected a time magazine. While my brain was digesting our political environment,
my stomach was digesting my mood stabilizer, a godlike voice permeated my atmosphere.

Announcing "security walk the floor" was the perfect motivation for me to scurry to
the register to get my wrapper scanned and properly acquired.

Would I have to do my time in Wisconsin?