Coming a live in a dive after a series of catatonic performances gave me the eternal beauty of a gasoline rainbow. Generating word pictures that invoke laughter has created the best moments of my life.
Label me fascinated by the varied demographic that high fived me after my performance. A black dude took my hand, the feeling of being swallowed up by the large warmth of his hand will not flee my memory anytime soon.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
high/low
I posses a high level of neediness, yet luckily my standards for
combating the neediness are low. Seeing the word approval on the
debit card monitor renders a sweet smile because it may be the only
message of approval I get that day. So soak it up! Baby!
Completing a blog entry without misspelled words, makes my spirit
float like a large birthday balloon on a neon ribbon.
I am so lucky that my quarry of neediness can be filled with pebbles and not boulders.
combating the neediness are low. Seeing the word approval on the
debit card monitor renders a sweet smile because it may be the only
message of approval I get that day. So soak it up! Baby!
Completing a blog entry without misspelled words, makes my spirit
float like a large birthday balloon on a neon ribbon.
I am so lucky that my quarry of neediness can be filled with pebbles and not boulders.
black-outs
I treat each stand-up performance like a 4Th grade book report, I always want to feel prepared and rehearsed. Well it would not help
me, because my delivery looked and sounded morphine laced. Chunks
would be left out of my introductory stories and only my punchline would be submitted. It was a grim let-down, like ordering won ton soup and it arriving table side sans won tons.
Explaining my struggling spirit to a woman friend, she said "Oh, I thought I was blacking out because I was so afraid for you". Cat
scan averted.
me, because my delivery looked and sounded morphine laced. Chunks
would be left out of my introductory stories and only my punchline would be submitted. It was a grim let-down, like ordering won ton soup and it arriving table side sans won tons.
Explaining my struggling spirit to a woman friend, she said "Oh, I thought I was blacking out because I was so afraid for you". Cat
scan averted.
Monday, February 14, 2011
my pink hat
I stared into the mirror, struggling to find the missing piece to my
facial puzzle and the answer was my pink Lauren hat. The hat is a daily accessory and a panic quickly set in at the possible absence of it. Rushing back to my seat, I realized the hat has become my security blanket. A birthday gift that keeps on giving.
facial puzzle and the answer was my pink Lauren hat. The hat is a daily accessory and a panic quickly set in at the possible absence of it. Rushing back to my seat, I realized the hat has become my security blanket. A birthday gift that keeps on giving.
spare tire
I am rattled. My houmer has given me the security of a spare tire
for a driver on a long country drive. I was always able to make
people laugh and it gave me the proper confidence to enter most social situations. Carol Burnett may have said they forget I am ugly when they laugh and I completely get that. The term "making
them laugh" indicates control. Watching someone laugh over words
that were born of my brain can be a tremendous high.
A friend, this weekend, informed me I was not funny and it left a mark. The experience has taught me to not take "the givens" for granted.
for a driver on a long country drive. I was always able to make
people laugh and it gave me the proper confidence to enter most social situations. Carol Burnett may have said they forget I am ugly when they laugh and I completely get that. The term "making
them laugh" indicates control. Watching someone laugh over words
that were born of my brain can be a tremendous high.
A friend, this weekend, informed me I was not funny and it left a mark. The experience has taught me to not take "the givens" for granted.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
lost in translation
I want to know why my words do not represent my thoughts and how
to fix it. It happened twice today. The semi-truck carrying my thoughts from brain to mouth went off track and a completely different cargo was delivered to my mouth. The incredibly frustrating part is that I am the driver and the answer must be on my emotional map. Taking emotional rest-stops to better plan routes of communication may assure arrival at a more secure emotional destination. we will see? where is an emotional rand-mcnally,
when you one?
to fix it. It happened twice today. The semi-truck carrying my thoughts from brain to mouth went off track and a completely different cargo was delivered to my mouth. The incredibly frustrating part is that I am the driver and the answer must be on my emotional map. Taking emotional rest-stops to better plan routes of communication may assure arrival at a more secure emotional destination. we will see? where is an emotional rand-mcnally,
when you one?
emotional mansion
I live in an apartment that precious would turn down. My New York friends ask me if my complex is like "melrose place" or "Beverly Hills 90210", my come back is that it is more like Beverly Hills
902oh no!
My hovel will never be featured in Esprit Decor. The feature for
me is that it is one of the few places where I will not be the recipient of yelling. No walking on egg shells, no being told I am
uguly and no being told I will not succeed, sounds like a mansion
to me.
902oh no!
My hovel will never be featured in Esprit Decor. The feature for
me is that it is one of the few places where I will not be the recipient of yelling. No walking on egg shells, no being told I am
uguly and no being told I will not succeed, sounds like a mansion
to me.
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