Is it or Isn't it?

A woman and I were sharing our daily updates..,I informed her that I was going stir crazy.., I was desperate to do something ..,

She replied that she was staying home..., she texted that she was at a club

this is where I get conflicted.., is it insensitive of her not to include me.., or

It is not her  responsibility to entertain me

Jumping Out Of My Skin

I feel like I am going out of my skin..,, feeling like sugar will be the key to my serenity.., a form of aloe if  you will ....

I asked myself, if not now then when.., to act on creating long term gratification instead of short term gratification

That would be the real key to serenity

Singer

I attended a multi media art festival ..... People were milling around and talking....in front of the

mobile crowd, a woman sang..

I admired her determination and self belief to have not hesitated or distracted by the atmospere

"So Easily"

I was watching a man dance on a fake wood floor... He caught my eye while he was saddled on a bar stool... his unscathed skin glistened in the mood lighting 

He swiveled his joints like his feet were adhered to a lazy Susan ..., a girl motioned towards him and they complemented each other with relaxed physical chemistry ... 

I did not think I could be her  "so easily" because it would done "so easily" by me 

Change Day

I will think of how I let my thoughts get in my way.., my response will be that the next day will be a new day... New opportunity to change..  then when I don't I wonder if I will know how

" Misery"

Harsh self descriptions slip out of my mouth... to naturally ..... I go to work looking like Kathy Bates from "Misery"

   It can give me pause that I can be so insulting about the most person in my life

Friendship Gardening

                 Friendships require tending 

Harangue

A man started yelling at me, in the middle of a restaurant, I felt free during his whole harangue. Each of his attacks were mentally met with an example of how I was free of him ..

When he yelled of me, during my youth, I only felt trapped... Determined I had no way out ...

I wish I was as fervent about how to become empowered

Two women Talking

 Two women were discussing aspects of their work place... The female listener made  a  low slow raspberry sound with her lips.... She said it was the sound of her spirit deflating

Out of Bed

I will become positive that the emotional marathons I have advanced have advanced me .., then their
are certain mornings I will lay in bed feeling like I have not progressed beyond my bed

Culinary Review

I found  two dead bugs in my apartment .... Is this a review of cooking?

Heart of a Humanity

I work in a call center that serves 14 states. Callers relay their life stories... Reducing costs to create the proceeds to bury her husband..., the first time he lived alone after a series of marriages.., an Islamic woman that told me how her religion colored her family

My headphones are a front row seat the heart of humanity

Nail Color

While I waited for a manicurist in an Asian salon ... I asked an American mother and daughter to pick out my nail polish color... In the event of alliance building

Required Reading

I am comprising a list of books to send to a man .. He is awaiting trial ..

I am thinking of puting, "In Cold Blood", at the top of list

Anything, Anytime

Reduced salt intake by reducing potato chip intake was a focus

I discovered if I engage in the purchasing of the chips, as a side to my sandwich, then give the bag
away ..,,. I will not miss them

I need to know that I can have  any food anytime

Jail Bird

A jail bird called me... He finished by the call by saying:

"I appreciate you ... I tell everyone about you.., I love you"

I responded: " everyday, in grade school, I would wish to be loved by a man living in the
big house"

Demotion or promotion ?

I was anxious about my lack sales as a call center agent.., I was pulled into a meeting... Asigned to a "special project"

Thought it was the perfect shake up .. ..  It was dropped on me that the project was for low sellers ..,

Their demotion is my promotion

Beyond Food

I was paid. I paid a bill. Reacted by questioning myself, " take out from what restaurant? Italian or Chinese?"

My answer was, "expand my life through acts beyond food".....

Vanity

I asked a woman how she got up for a 5:30 am class

She answered: Vanity

Slow Whisper

I have come to realize that my small talk could be duplicated for the  gentle instruction of a hospice nurse ..,It's almost over.., am I talking loud? Then I lower my voice to a slow whisper .... Always offering to read out loud to people ....

I am going to make myself comfortable